AUTHOR'S NOTE: This vignette
contains spoilers for the DS9 finale. I wrote it because I miss him
"Like the deserts miss the rain."
I miss him, Garak. Elim.
It hit me after I left Cardassia, arriving back on the station. The pain...it's a hollow ache in my chest that drink and talk and sex won't dispel. Dear Ezri, gazing up at me, her eyes brimming with a half dozen different emotions - relief, desire, bewildered concern. How do I tell her that even while we make love, my mind is light years away?
Why did I turn my back while he walked away for the last time? I go over and over the scene in my mind. The casualties - so many dead, a planet in mourning. And Garak, odd and still and serene, talking as if it all had happened to someone else.
I miss the honey-sweet sound of his voice, the way his face came alive whenever we met. God, why did I let us drift apart the last two years? Now he's gone and our paths may never cross again.
I'm sorry, my friend. Be well.
I love you.
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